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Social anxiety in Philly: Cani's honest answer.

The week’s question, what do you think about social anxiety, put to two people on a Germantown corner, and answered by Cani Marshall, 25, as somebody who lives with it.

He does not theorise. “honestly as a person who has social anxiety the thing that I think about it like I just feel like I don’t know I feel like a lot of people have it.” Then the thing itself, happening on camera: “right now I’m like having a hard time trying to like think of what to say.” The hardest version, he says, is when you are a people person anyway. “you do want to conversate with people you just don’t know how to say things or like what to say.”

Asked what young people in Philadelphia are anxious about, his answer is other people’s reactions. Some are nice; some want to know why you are talking to them at all. “I don’t know what that person’s reaction is going to be They could be on edge, they probably having a bad day and they might take it out on me.” He allows that this is any city, “because we’re just constantly moving in the city.”

His question for the city is a good one: which small businesses to go to, because Germantown is full of them, “you’re gonna see a lot of small black businesses and stuff like that they’re everywhere here in philadelphia.” He came to the city at seventeen; his experience of it is “kind of like wishy-washy,” good and bad.

Filed by Marissa for the field network, with Maceo on camera asking the questions. The second person on the corner, 77, from Montgomery County, mostly listens.

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0:07So this is for We Them Media. My name is Maceo, and I’m here in Germantown. And this week, what’s your name? Cani Marshall. Okay. And where are you two from? I am from Montgomery County, but I live here in Philadelphia. I’m from the street. Okay. Okay. And how old are you? um 77 years old okay okay I’m 25 okay okay and so this week’s question is what do you think about social anxiety um honestly as a person who has social anxiety the thing that I think about it like I just feel like I don’t know I feel like a lot of people have it I’m a lot of people that I do

0:54know like they have it and it’s like like right now I’m like having a hard time trying to like think of what to say is it is it is like one of the hardest things to kind of live with especially if like you are kind of like a people person like you do like people you do want to conversate with people you just don’t know how to say things or like what to say so it’s like it is hard to live with in a way because like you don’t really know how to navigate through things as far as like social interactions and stuff um but yeah that’s about that’s really all I can really say about it

1:32Okay, what do you think about Philly?

1:37What do you think people are anxious about in Philly, young people? I think the thing that we are mostly anxious about is just like how certain people will react because some people are nice here and then some people are a little like, like why are you talking to me? Like, you know what I’m saying? Like why are you even like trying to have a conversation with me? Like, you know what I’m saying? And it’s like I feel like that also like makes the anxiety more for them because it’s like I don’t know what that person’s reaction is going to be They could be on edge, they probably having a bad day and they might take it out on me, you know what I’m saying

2:08So you never really know what you’re going to get out of the people in this city But I feel like that’s just any city like because we’re just constantly moving in the city Yes No, that makes sense, that makes sense Are there any questions you want me to be asking people around the city, you think it would be meaningful to be asking people around the city?

2:27um i would be asking like what kind of spots to do like what kind of good spots is around here as far as like small businesses because there’s a lot of small businesses here in philadelphia like you’re gonna see a lot of small black businesses and stuff like that they’re everywhere here in philadelphia especially here in germantown that’s true you want to shout any out um i don’t know any off the top of my head i’m not gonna lie but i have seen some it’s like a pink place right here that’s like a small business and she just opened that you want to talk about the

2:59Barbershop

3:12Anthony something else, but yeah, I really can say like I’m like I got I came here when I was 17. So Like my experience is kind of like wishy-washy. There’s like it’s good and bad Like, I ain’t had the best experience, but I also had some good experiences as well, so, but yeah. It was nice to meet you. It was nice to meet you, too.

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